"Vista told me that there were programs running in the background that were causing slow performance and in the list was explorer.exe
I laughed.
Then cried.
Then formated." :)
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On that note, my new camera is on its way. Yay!
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Friday, November 16, 2007
There is more, but 2 things briefly:
1. If you voted for bush, why the fuck do you live on my hill?
2. Faves.com? WTF? It makes me want to stop dotting. Sad.
2. Faves.com? WTF? It makes me want to stop dotting. Sad.
Monday, November 5, 2007
I heart huckabees
You know, there are some things in life that I want to share with everyone. There are some things that I want to share with someone in particular. Everyone is special to me in that way I suppose. The problem arises when I have these feelings about someone that I no longer have the practical ability to have this interaction with. It can be a bit depressing at times, but I do think it is a beautiful part of life caring about people and missing them.
It occurs to me about how people talk about the honesty of some people throwing around this "love" thing. I guess at any level. People think that many others will say it without meaning. I suppose this can be true, and I think that I am hesitant to try to defend my professions in the past, but everything inside of me tells me that it was truth. I miss everyone of the people that I used to have a special closeness too.
Existentialism, nihilism, sex, truth, beauty, love. It flows through me in as far as I can tell an irregularly high frequency. Turning off my brain through any of the various means is of course, a temporary bliss, but I think I have come to realize that it is temporary. There are bigger things than avoiding reality. I still want to believe that people try, and are for the most part, good. Understanding how the extreme emotional experiences we all have had bond us together will still be something that I will persevere with.
Generally I am happy. Busy and not without the normal social dramas occupying my thoughts (at least it is no longer homework or money!). I feel the urge everyday to have someone understand me better which I think is an important driving force in my life. I think that I finally have been able to live a lot of the ideals that I have developed over the years which is a quiet, slow, but powerful realization despite the painful decisions it forces me to make from time to time.
I am burying myself in Seattle and I am not sure how I feel about it. I would find a greater freedom very desirable but there are so many things that I have assembled around me. Friends, activities, etc.
I love you all. Seriously. And all I have to say is Fort Night '07 Baby!
It occurs to me about how people talk about the honesty of some people throwing around this "love" thing. I guess at any level. People think that many others will say it without meaning. I suppose this can be true, and I think that I am hesitant to try to defend my professions in the past, but everything inside of me tells me that it was truth. I miss everyone of the people that I used to have a special closeness too.
Existentialism, nihilism, sex, truth, beauty, love. It flows through me in as far as I can tell an irregularly high frequency. Turning off my brain through any of the various means is of course, a temporary bliss, but I think I have come to realize that it is temporary. There are bigger things than avoiding reality. I still want to believe that people try, and are for the most part, good. Understanding how the extreme emotional experiences we all have had bond us together will still be something that I will persevere with.
Generally I am happy. Busy and not without the normal social dramas occupying my thoughts (at least it is no longer homework or money!). I feel the urge everyday to have someone understand me better which I think is an important driving force in my life. I think that I finally have been able to live a lot of the ideals that I have developed over the years which is a quiet, slow, but powerful realization despite the painful decisions it forces me to make from time to time.
I am burying myself in Seattle and I am not sure how I feel about it. I would find a greater freedom very desirable but there are so many things that I have assembled around me. Friends, activities, etc.
I love you all. Seriously. And all I have to say is Fort Night '07 Baby!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Ugh, that time of year...
I am getting sick and things are not going to calm down till what, February? :(
I am potentially getting a roommate that I met for 5 minutes in two weeks, awesome (kinda). So I have to clean the apartment and get my shit together.
Robotics is going full swing again and we are still in the preseason. I somewhat foolishly offered to let one of the kids cut my hair if they got a $500 donation, well that quickly got out of hand - two other people matched the $500 so it was instantly a $1500 haircut and I could no longer back out. They just got the money and my head is going to be a bit chilly in the near future I fear. They are throwing a party for cutting my hair. How strange.
I had a connection with someone recently that was very much long-time coming. It was a relief if nothing else, and think valid despite any levels of intoxication. I think they are preparing for some more turmoil in their life which makes it hard to know what to say. I have to be encouraging but not too pessimistic.
Halloween is stressful. This sucks. I have a costume idea but I don't know what I would even be doing with it. I am not exactly thrilled to be going to a party that I am half welcomed and basically not invited. Seriously, wtf?
Maybe it is time for FIRST to kick in taking 20+ hours a week (escape), IDk.
I am potentially getting a roommate that I met for 5 minutes in two weeks, awesome (kinda). So I have to clean the apartment and get my shit together.
Robotics is going full swing again and we are still in the preseason. I somewhat foolishly offered to let one of the kids cut my hair if they got a $500 donation, well that quickly got out of hand - two other people matched the $500 so it was instantly a $1500 haircut and I could no longer back out. They just got the money and my head is going to be a bit chilly in the near future I fear. They are throwing a party for cutting my hair. How strange.
I had a connection with someone recently that was very much long-time coming. It was a relief if nothing else, and think valid despite any levels of intoxication. I think they are preparing for some more turmoil in their life which makes it hard to know what to say. I have to be encouraging but not too pessimistic.
Halloween is stressful. This sucks. I have a costume idea but I don't know what I would even be doing with it. I am not exactly thrilled to be going to a party that I am half welcomed and basically not invited. Seriously, wtf?
Maybe it is time for FIRST to kick in taking 20+ hours a week (escape), IDk.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Ahh I have mobile music once again!
Regina:
This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again
Postal Service:
I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie
So I changed my plans and rented a camera and a van and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again" and you agreed to
I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
And I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic)
I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?
This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again
Postal Service:
I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie
So I changed my plans and rented a camera and a van and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again" and you agreed to
I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
And I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic)
I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
ludicrous speed
Dating is expensive. Is it that a person becomes that much more active or is it kind of an artificial need for formality in going out to eat or things like that? Probably a combination but I need to budget a bit better... or get a better job... or a roomate :/
Suddenly it feels like the important things in my life are summed up in a handfull of concepts/points/ideas. Is it not more complicated than this? Have I really created a generic litmus test that can so immediately dictate an interaction with someone? I think time still plays a factor but it is amazing how irrelevent it has become - whether it is a couple of months or a couple of weeks (and maybe, but hopefully not a couple of years).
The Red Bull soapbox races were a blast. There was an incredible turn out despite it being rainy-bad weather. A fire engine drove down the street in the middle of the course either not knowing the course would be there, or needing to get through anyway. Within maybe a minute maximum, the firefighters jumped out of the truck and the audience broke the course dragging the rails and bails of hay in a frenzy of help so the truck could drive through, and then almost instantly returned the course to its previous state. It was kind of amazing to witness. By far the most expensive polished design crashed in one of the shortest amounts of time :) I ate a ton of kettle corn :/
Some things in life still challenge me. It is wonderful and beautiful in its own, hard to appreciate way. It is nice to get a glimpse into someone even after I had believed it was a forgone possibility.
Suddenly it feels like the important things in my life are summed up in a handfull of concepts/points/ideas. Is it not more complicated than this? Have I really created a generic litmus test that can so immediately dictate an interaction with someone? I think time still plays a factor but it is amazing how irrelevent it has become - whether it is a couple of months or a couple of weeks (and maybe, but hopefully not a couple of years).
The Red Bull soapbox races were a blast. There was an incredible turn out despite it being rainy-bad weather. A fire engine drove down the street in the middle of the course either not knowing the course would be there, or needing to get through anyway. Within maybe a minute maximum, the firefighters jumped out of the truck and the audience broke the course dragging the rails and bails of hay in a frenzy of help so the truck could drive through, and then almost instantly returned the course to its previous state. It was kind of amazing to witness. By far the most expensive polished design crashed in one of the shortest amounts of time :) I ate a ton of kettle corn :/
Some things in life still challenge me. It is wonderful and beautiful in its own, hard to appreciate way. It is nice to get a glimpse into someone even after I had believed it was a forgone possibility.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I am a bad blogger
I am very, very happy about my new black socks.
The bus tunnel is open again. It gives me a very strong feeling of nostalgia being down there - it feels like it has been forever.
The social scene is as expected (crazier than ever). A lot of acquaintances becoming friends and more, and having new hideouts around town where I can feel at home are always appreciated. There will always be turmoil and a healthy dose of pain once and a while, but thats just a part life and is to be appreciated in its own way.
I have played more dig-dug and pacman in the last week or so then I would have ever thought possible since the old atari console. Awesome.
Public art is my new obsession. It is off to a good start as I have been doing a lot of rock stacking and sculptures on the beaches and river shores of Washington state. It is a very satisfying and fun activity. Golden gardens (hopefully with a bon fire) will be the next target - hopefully sometime soon.
FIRST is ramping up again and its about time! There is plenty of work to do, and I am excited. There are new people in my life though who I think don't yet understand that I disappear for 6 weeks every January. It will be tough as usual, but I have survived alright so far ;) I am glad to hear the LHS program will survive, and it looks like we will be starting some lego league teams in the future. Yay!
The bus tunnel is open again. It gives me a very strong feeling of nostalgia being down there - it feels like it has been forever.
The social scene is as expected (crazier than ever). A lot of acquaintances becoming friends and more, and having new hideouts around town where I can feel at home are always appreciated. There will always be turmoil and a healthy dose of pain once and a while, but thats just a part life and is to be appreciated in its own way.
I have played more dig-dug and pacman in the last week or so then I would have ever thought possible since the old atari console. Awesome.
Public art is my new obsession. It is off to a good start as I have been doing a lot of rock stacking and sculptures on the beaches and river shores of Washington state. It is a very satisfying and fun activity. Golden gardens (hopefully with a bon fire) will be the next target - hopefully sometime soon.
FIRST is ramping up again and its about time! There is plenty of work to do, and I am excited. There are new people in my life though who I think don't yet understand that I disappear for 6 weeks every January. It will be tough as usual, but I have survived alright so far ;) I am glad to hear the LHS program will survive, and it looks like we will be starting some lego league teams in the future. Yay!
Monday, July 23, 2007
Thank god!
I found a reference to a Shannon Jex on facebook doing the rounds to find some old friends. Thankfully it was not what I had feared!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Overheard conversation...
"So we updated our drug panel, retroactively to July 1st... so if you have any suspicion that someone is using those kinds of drugs you can go ahead and have them randomly tested, again"
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Monday, July 9, 2007
Sheesh!
So I went to applebees for lunch today. Turns out they open at 11am which was when I was planning on getting there. So when I arrived they had not yet opened with a numberr of people waiting out front.
Anyway, this black women comes to open up (like 11:05 at the latest) and opens the doors for the people to come in. Upon showing up but before she would have been within range, one person of an elderly couple also waiting to get in makes this comment. "I guess there is white time, and I guess there is nigger time"
I wanted to cry. How do people like this still exist in this country? I guess it takes time for these people to die off, but they are living a bit too long on my social security payments eating from the senior menu at applebees. I just hope their kids are intelligent enough to break the cycle of this mindless racism and bigotry.
People know where this is from, right?
Anyway, this black women comes to open up (like 11:05 at the latest) and opens the doors for the people to come in. Upon showing up but before she would have been within range, one person of an elderly couple also waiting to get in makes this comment. "I guess there is white time, and I guess there is nigger time"
I wanted to cry. How do people like this still exist in this country? I guess it takes time for these people to die off, but they are living a bit too long on my social security payments eating from the senior menu at applebees. I just hope their kids are intelligent enough to break the cycle of this mindless racism and bigotry.
People know where this is from, right?
I survived the midwest.
I am 24. It is official, I am in my mid-twenties.
I love my apartment. The money thing might get old, but having it just as I like it is wonderful.
Of course I miss val, but the social scene has picked up a bit lately.
I love board games. 10-4-3 settlers game and 3 player TI pwnage :) They want me to start playing the games they are better at, hah!
I am 24. It is official, I am in my mid-twenties.
I love my apartment. The money thing might get old, but having it just as I like it is wonderful.
Of course I miss val, but the social scene has picked up a bit lately.
I love board games. 10-4-3 settlers game and 3 player TI pwnage :) They want me to start playing the games they are better at, hah!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Morning Commute
So I was waiting for the bus in capitol hill at 620am this morning when a nice looking young woman drove by in her bmw. Down the street about 100ft she pulled over, got out and walked up to me. She offered me some religious booklet for something to do while waiting for the bus. I declined and she happily went on her way getting back into her car and driving off. Despite the usual obnoxious interaction with anything to do with religious propaganda, this was quite pleasant.
Further along my journey, waiting for the bus downtown I have noticed a lady that is there frequently at the same time as I am. She walks over, stands directly in the middle of the local puddle that has usually developed and proceeds to splash water onto her shoes. It has an endearing quality to the whole action, kind of a child-like innocence.
Also in unrelated news, I watched the new Michael Moore movie, SiCKO. I recommend it, but be warned it made me want to move to Canada, or basically somewhere other than here.
Further along my journey, waiting for the bus downtown I have noticed a lady that is there frequently at the same time as I am. She walks over, stands directly in the middle of the local puddle that has usually developed and proceeds to splash water onto her shoes. It has an endearing quality to the whole action, kind of a child-like innocence.
Also in unrelated news, I watched the new Michael Moore movie, SiCKO. I recommend it, but be warned it made me want to move to Canada, or basically somewhere other than here.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
How can I talk about my life? The words would fail so miserably. Words are a failure, and everyday I am reminded of this. I am stuck in this cycle of complex decisions and life reflections.
I need someone where words do not get in the way. It has been too long since I had this existence. Nothing in my life seems to be outside of the context of this, my ultimate goal.
Val is moving, I am graduating from UW, I am quickly approaching my first real full time career type job (in Renton), and I am possibly looking for what may be my permanent residence for the next couple years. End of an era.
People are my life, and also my weakness. They are my addiction, and it pains me to see how successful people are at making themselves unhappy. People think that certain types of unhappiness and dissatisfaction are beneficial in life, that it is some necessary sacrifice to be truly happy. I think that this is tragic, and because it is a minority opinion that I have that this is absurd, I am punished. Despite my most thorough efforts I have yet to sway any one's mind on the matter. People breaking up, cheating on each other, getting hurt. There is no reason for any of this.
In other news, I saw a girl from high school that I had a big crush on back in the day. She is now happily married, but looking better than ever heh. I believe she was Mormon though, so I probably had a slim chance at best :) I have been given an opportunity to bring back some old memories lately and have still managed to make some small fool out of myself. Oh well, better than inaction.
Anyway, lets push things forward.
I need someone where words do not get in the way. It has been too long since I had this existence. Nothing in my life seems to be outside of the context of this, my ultimate goal.
Val is moving, I am graduating from UW, I am quickly approaching my first real full time career type job (in Renton), and I am possibly looking for what may be my permanent residence for the next couple years. End of an era.
People are my life, and also my weakness. They are my addiction, and it pains me to see how successful people are at making themselves unhappy. People think that certain types of unhappiness and dissatisfaction are beneficial in life, that it is some necessary sacrifice to be truly happy. I think that this is tragic, and because it is a minority opinion that I have that this is absurd, I am punished. Despite my most thorough efforts I have yet to sway any one's mind on the matter. People breaking up, cheating on each other, getting hurt. There is no reason for any of this.
In other news, I saw a girl from high school that I had a big crush on back in the day. She is now happily married, but looking better than ever heh. I believe she was Mormon though, so I probably had a slim chance at best :) I have been given an opportunity to bring back some old memories lately and have still managed to make some small fool out of myself. Oh well, better than inaction.
Anyway, lets push things forward.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
A new...
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Monday, March 12, 2007
Busy as hell
If I wasn't still recovering from the flu or whatever it was that I had I might have better survived this weekend, but overall I think I did alright.
Friday was Val's performance which was pleasant. There was a number of more technical ballet pieces that was a refreshing from more of the modern style pieces that tend to dominate.
Saturday was going to be a show at Neumo's and then the 300 at cinerama. It turned into taking an extended (but much needed and appreciated) nap until heading downtown for the movie. Sure the movie was cheesy, had gratuitous nudity and completely transparent plot lines but it was a good action flick. Racist? I'm not sure that was the intent, but some people seemed to have some problems with it. I didn't take it that seriously :)
Sunday was again a day to play catch up. Got some sleep, did some laundry (eventually) and pretended like I was ready for this week. Compline was actually a very nice end to the weekend, as it usually is. It was very calming and a great time of introspection. At St. Marks they have pictures of people and war torn Jerusalem. Some very powerful and sad imagery. I overheard a father trying to explain to his what must of been 8 year old son about genocide. I just about lost it.
I am not even going to attempt to claim I am ready for San Jose. Maybe it is better that way.
Sometimes change is hard, but necessary. Not everything in life is easy, and this is what I must force myself to understand and believe.
Friday was Val's performance which was pleasant. There was a number of more technical ballet pieces that was a refreshing from more of the modern style pieces that tend to dominate.
Saturday was going to be a show at Neumo's and then the 300 at cinerama. It turned into taking an extended (but much needed and appreciated) nap until heading downtown for the movie. Sure the movie was cheesy, had gratuitous nudity and completely transparent plot lines but it was a good action flick. Racist? I'm not sure that was the intent, but some people seemed to have some problems with it. I didn't take it that seriously :)
Sunday was again a day to play catch up. Got some sleep, did some laundry (eventually) and pretended like I was ready for this week. Compline was actually a very nice end to the weekend, as it usually is. It was very calming and a great time of introspection. At St. Marks they have pictures of people and war torn Jerusalem. Some very powerful and sad imagery. I overheard a father trying to explain to his what must of been 8 year old son about genocide. I just about lost it.
I am not even going to attempt to claim I am ready for San Jose. Maybe it is better that way.
Sometimes change is hard, but necessary. Not everything in life is easy, and this is what I must force myself to understand and believe.
Friday, March 9, 2007
Sick...
well or so the theme seems to be over the past couple days. I have not been this sick in a while. It is not all that bad - it is letting me take care of some business and clean up the apartment some. If nothing else it gives me time to think.
It feels like life is cyclical, as usual For some reason I believe that this time around I am in a good position to make the right choices, instead of letting things just continue as is in the safety of the known and my own inaction. To be or not to be lol.
The prospect of moving is coming closer to reality, and I am excited. Worried? Maybe a bit, but for some reason it just feels right. There are bigger things I worry about. I secretly love to move. It is a new start. A new opportunity to reorganize your life. How often do you get that kind of chance? It is similar to rearranging your living room or something. I knew few people can appreciate the appeal of things things (as they are also usually a general pain) but they are almost therapeutic for me at times. Just like reinstalling my computer :)
Speaking of computers, I have officially bought a apple product. No laptop or anything, but a airport extreme base station. I was fed up with the last two network routers that I bought, and the airport has the ability to host hard drives and printers on the network through a usb hub. This in addition to the 802.11n support made it unlike anything else on the market (and also exactly what I needed). Unfortunately it doesn't support NTFS which means I have to find a way to dump my two portable hdd's which also unfortunately nearly full. When all is said and done it should be awesome, despite having to admit that this post, as well as all of my online presence is now flowing through mac hardware :P Sabrina is tapping her fingers satisfied in step one of her evil plan to convert me. Just one thing to say, not until I have unlimited disposable income!!! :) Oh, and when you go to their store, they will email you a receipt instead of printing one out. How cool is that?!?!
I am starting a co-ed soccer league soon. Despite being in horrible shape, I am really excited. I miss soccer a lot. A lot a lot. Oh the pain, I can almost feel it now.
Anyway, plenty more contemplations in my future. I remain optimistic.
It feels like life is cyclical, as usual For some reason I believe that this time around I am in a good position to make the right choices, instead of letting things just continue as is in the safety of the known and my own inaction. To be or not to be lol.
The prospect of moving is coming closer to reality, and I am excited. Worried? Maybe a bit, but for some reason it just feels right. There are bigger things I worry about. I secretly love to move. It is a new start. A new opportunity to reorganize your life. How often do you get that kind of chance? It is similar to rearranging your living room or something. I knew few people can appreciate the appeal of things things (as they are also usually a general pain) but they are almost therapeutic for me at times. Just like reinstalling my computer :)
Speaking of computers, I have officially bought a apple product. No laptop or anything, but a airport extreme base station. I was fed up with the last two network routers that I bought, and the airport has the ability to host hard drives and printers on the network through a usb hub. This in addition to the 802.11n support made it unlike anything else on the market (and also exactly what I needed). Unfortunately it doesn't support NTFS which means I have to find a way to dump my two portable hdd's which also unfortunately nearly full. When all is said and done it should be awesome, despite having to admit that this post, as well as all of my online presence is now flowing through mac hardware :P Sabrina is tapping her fingers satisfied in step one of her evil plan to convert me. Just one thing to say, not until I have unlimited disposable income!!! :) Oh, and when you go to their store, they will email you a receipt instead of printing one out. How cool is that?!?!
I am starting a co-ed soccer league soon. Despite being in horrible shape, I am really excited. I miss soccer a lot. A lot a lot. Oh the pain, I can almost feel it now.
Anyway, plenty more contemplations in my future. I remain optimistic.
Monday, March 5, 2007
So much to say
There is so much to say, and I don't think I have the energy to say it all. It will be a picture post.
Portland was great. We did well - better than any team I have ever been on. It was exhausting and fun.
Our kids are great.
I went to a party in Bothell. It was suburban, but it was fun.
Need I say more?
Portland was great. We did well - better than any team I have ever been on. It was exhausting and fun.
Our kids are great.
I went to a party in Bothell. It was suburban, but it was fun.
Need I say more?
Friday, February 23, 2007
lol John Mayer
Here is one of John Mayer's jokes: "Everyone thinks Brad Pitt has it great because he married Angelina Jolie. I think he has it terrible, because when Angelina Jolie is giving you a blow job, what do you tip your head back and think of to help you finish? You have nothing left -- just Jesus on a polar bear in the middle of the snow, saying, 'You greedy motherfucker, I've got nothing for you.'"
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Done
And so I am done with my 5th build season of FIRST. This year was the best ever. More support, better mentors and kids, and a better robot. This I feel is our best chance of being in one of the top spots at Portland especially, and hopefully San Jose and even Atlanta. I get my life back now, yea!
Also, at Sun Liquor they have fresh grapefruit greyhounds - omg so tasty. Now I fear I have to go back again, and again.
I need to make a list to clean up all of the loose ends my life has acquired over the past while. Soon things should be back to normalish.
Also, at Sun Liquor they have fresh grapefruit greyhounds - omg so tasty. Now I fear I have to go back again, and again.
I need to make a list to clean up all of the loose ends my life has acquired over the past while. Soon things should be back to normalish.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Mind dump
Wow, writers block or something. I haven't been able to really post an update. Maybe I am just too busy to deal with it.
Can my whole life pretty much fall into the categories of school, FIRST, social life, family, and hobbies? I guess when you blend any number of those you get a pretty diverse gradient.
I have been working ~40 hrs a week (usually 6am to 3pm) which means I wake up at 430, get home by 4. Then on what is turning out to be tuesday through friday I go to robotics which means I barely have enough time to eat and shower before leaving, and I usually don't get back until around 1130. So 5 hours of sleep a night (which usually ends up being 4). Then on saturday and maybe even sunday we will schedule another 8-16 hrs on the robot. Just those two roughly take 100-110 hrs out of my week. If I only account for 6 hours of sleep average a night add 42 which brings you to 142-152. This leaves about 10-15 hours of actual free time a week where I get to cram in my social life, family and hobbies. For this I apologize to all my friends, and I hope you understand ;) I would never willingly give up FIRST but that doesn't keep me from missing the time with others.
Needless to say - I called in sick, wrapped up in a blanket and installed vista on my desktop. This is something that my brain needed. See reinstalling my computers is almost therapeutic for me. I don't understand and couldn't imagine many others would either, but it is one of my favorite things to do with my free time. I am just a huge fan of organization and optimization and when things get a bit too cluttered I have to break down and start from scratch.
I went to Ellensburg for Adam's birthday last Sunday. It was a lot of time taken out of my schedule but it was fun, and always good to tear him away from his busy schoolwork once and a while. By CWU there has developed an absolute ton of hoar frost on everything, antennas, trees, fences, Christmas lights. It is amazingly beautiful and if you have the chance (not sure if it still around) I recommend checking it out. It is a fairly rare phenomenon, especially in that quantity. My mom and my step dad beat my brother and I at euchre, that should not happen. We had horrible luck.
I hate sandblasting.
Yesterday, I found out that someone I knew didn't believe in global warming. Heh.
I wore a tacky t-shirt to work the other day, its one from Hawaii that my dad and step mom got me. Its so clever in that it looks like the Budweiser logo but in actuality it says some Hawaiian shit that I have not taken the time to read. Funny thing was however, one person complemented me on the shirt and another said they had that same exact one! I was laughing so hard on the inside.
A friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer the other day. I hope she is doing okay although I feel like talking to her about it might make me seem either cold or invasive and the chances are low that she might divulge much more information.
This might get edited a bit for a while. I want to include a list of stuff I have been meaning to do, but have yet to accomplish.
Can my whole life pretty much fall into the categories of school, FIRST, social life, family, and hobbies? I guess when you blend any number of those you get a pretty diverse gradient.
I have been working ~40 hrs a week (usually 6am to 3pm) which means I wake up at 430, get home by 4. Then on what is turning out to be tuesday through friday I go to robotics which means I barely have enough time to eat and shower before leaving, and I usually don't get back until around 1130. So 5 hours of sleep a night (which usually ends up being 4). Then on saturday and maybe even sunday we will schedule another 8-16 hrs on the robot. Just those two roughly take 100-110 hrs out of my week. If I only account for 6 hours of sleep average a night add 42 which brings you to 142-152. This leaves about 10-15 hours of actual free time a week where I get to cram in my social life, family and hobbies. For this I apologize to all my friends, and I hope you understand ;) I would never willingly give up FIRST but that doesn't keep me from missing the time with others.
Needless to say - I called in sick, wrapped up in a blanket and installed vista on my desktop. This is something that my brain needed. See reinstalling my computers is almost therapeutic for me. I don't understand and couldn't imagine many others would either, but it is one of my favorite things to do with my free time. I am just a huge fan of organization and optimization and when things get a bit too cluttered I have to break down and start from scratch.
I went to Ellensburg for Adam's birthday last Sunday. It was a lot of time taken out of my schedule but it was fun, and always good to tear him away from his busy schoolwork once and a while. By CWU there has developed an absolute ton of hoar frost on everything, antennas, trees, fences, Christmas lights. It is amazingly beautiful and if you have the chance (not sure if it still around) I recommend checking it out. It is a fairly rare phenomenon, especially in that quantity. My mom and my step dad beat my brother and I at euchre, that should not happen. We had horrible luck.
I hate sandblasting.
Yesterday, I found out that someone I knew didn't believe in global warming. Heh.
I wore a tacky t-shirt to work the other day, its one from Hawaii that my dad and step mom got me. Its so clever in that it looks like the Budweiser logo but in actuality it says some Hawaiian shit that I have not taken the time to read. Funny thing was however, one person complemented me on the shirt and another said they had that same exact one! I was laughing so hard on the inside.
A friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer the other day. I hope she is doing okay although I feel like talking to her about it might make me seem either cold or invasive and the chances are low that she might divulge much more information.
This might get edited a bit for a while. I want to include a list of stuff I have been meaning to do, but have yet to accomplish.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
A day to relax
So I took at trip to Bainbridge island today with Sabrina. It was quite pleasant. We went to the streamliner diner which was very tasty - I will have to go back for a waffle sometime soon :) We visited a couple stores, and walked down by the waterfront. Something about life there is very appealing. I have this idea of starting an online company of some sort and have some property where I can work on projects, start a garden and enjoy both the small community and also the city just a short ferry ride away. I had thought that I could never get away from the city, but maybe this is an acceptable alternative.
One of the most peaceful things for me is falling asleep outside, hearing the dull passing of people in the quad, or hearing the leaves blowing in the wind. Today while riding the ferry back to Seattle I fell asleep in the car listening to Nora Jones while we slowly rocked back and forth and made our way across the water. This for me, was very calming. I think it is notable being able to feel comfortable enough with someone to fall asleep in such a way in their presence.
One of the most peaceful things for me is falling asleep outside, hearing the dull passing of people in the quad, or hearing the leaves blowing in the wind. Today while riding the ferry back to Seattle I fell asleep in the car listening to Nora Jones while we slowly rocked back and forth and made our way across the water. This for me, was very calming. I think it is notable being able to feel comfortable enough with someone to fall asleep in such a way in their presence.
It's alive!
Friday, January 19, 2007
Inching along...
So we are officially 6 days behind. This is not to say that we are not ahead of every other season, but we are still behind schedule. This has been a year of doing things right, and having the time to do so (this makes me happy)
For example:
This is the beginnings of our new control board. Things are well organized, and it wont end up being the lowest priority and therefore a huge rat's nest of wires.
I am working again tonight (up to 4 days a week now). I have generally been getting to bed at midnight, and waking up at 4am. I wonder when I will crash. I seriously need a day off to clean and get things back in order since the whistler trip, not to mention catching up in the sleep department. I don't want to give anything up, but it is going to get harder to keep up with all of this and still consider my sanity and my sleep.
For example:
This is the beginnings of our new control board. Things are well organized, and it wont end up being the lowest priority and therefore a huge rat's nest of wires.
I am working again tonight (up to 4 days a week now). I have generally been getting to bed at midnight, and waking up at 4am. I wonder when I will crash. I seriously need a day off to clean and get things back in order since the whistler trip, not to mention catching up in the sleep department. I don't want to give anything up, but it is going to get harder to keep up with all of this and still consider my sanity and my sleep.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Back from Whistler
I went to Whistler for the annual IUGA ski trip. It was a blast. I made some friends, drank too much, got beat up on the slopes, and broke in my new board. I am amazed that I can have like 9 drinks in a couple hours and be almost completely sober. I swear, in touristy Canada they have perfected watering down their drinks.
I can't say the trip was overly eventful. I mean sure there was random strangers, drunken debauchery, and having our bus get sideswiped by a stupid minivan in Canada (we had to wait for the mounties lol)
Trips like this are generally stressful for me, but this one ended up fairly well. I decided that I would just do what I wanted and not get caught up in trying to tag along with anyone's specific plans. I still suck at snowboarding so breaking off from the group was exactly what I needed. No pressure, and some time for some peaceful self reflection of sorts. The mountains are beautiful and pushing myself physically is a rush.
I really need to get in better shape. Boarding killed me, and I think my difficulty is maybe 75% fitness. By the end of the day I was more confident and was getting better, but not till after some decent crashes, bumps and bruises. It's all good though.
I feel like there are big thoughts going on for me now, but it is hard to verbalize. Maybe it is just that I always get this way after trips. It is an escape from your normal day to day, and they are usually accompanied by some sort of marked exit from, and entry back into your life. Riding the bus for 5 or so hours back from Canada gives you plenty of time to sit and look at your life as something external, something you are for some reason now able to look at from the outside. I do the same thing flying back from Michigan, or wherever I am visiting.
It is also a very nice feeling when you have friends you can call on, even if it is for a ride home after a long weekend.
Either way it seems like my life is changing at an accelerated rate, and it feels like finally I am in a position to take advantage of the opportunity.
And so now for a random quote that I hope someone will get: back to life, back to reality
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight
Life of course remains hectic.
FIRST is going well - the game is interesting and heavily relies on strategy which is my strong suit. We are actually holding ourselves to our off season advice and planning ahead and leaving ourselves some time to get stuff done.
Socially, things have gotten better. I am much appreciative of this new group of people that I hopefully will soon be calling friends. I feel it is not frequent that you meet people like this, and I plan on taking advantage.
It is so nice not being in school. Generally I wish I was more productive at work, but I think for some reason this is my being burnt out week or something.
Having about 2o hours of free time a week is a little stressful, and I am pretty sure my sleeping habits are suffering, but that is okay.
Some things are harder to put into words.
I have once again been swept into the beauty and complexity that is life. I am not afraid, and will not turn away.
FIRST is going well - the game is interesting and heavily relies on strategy which is my strong suit. We are actually holding ourselves to our off season advice and planning ahead and leaving ourselves some time to get stuff done.
Socially, things have gotten better. I am much appreciative of this new group of people that I hopefully will soon be calling friends. I feel it is not frequent that you meet people like this, and I plan on taking advantage.
It is so nice not being in school. Generally I wish I was more productive at work, but I think for some reason this is my being burnt out week or something.
Having about 2o hours of free time a week is a little stressful, and I am pretty sure my sleeping habits are suffering, but that is okay.
Some things are harder to put into words.
I have once again been swept into the beauty and complexity that is life. I am not afraid, and will not turn away.
Saturday, January 6, 2007
Friday, January 5, 2007
Cool Project Idea
Retro
I want one of these!
The score is the actual time. I think I would spend way too much time staring at it though. I would always know what time it was!
The score is the actual time. I think I would spend way too much time staring at it though. I would always know what time it was!
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Michigan Roots...
Unprecedented court ruling in Detroit, Michigan
Detroit , MI (AP) - A seven-year-old boy was at the center of a Detroit courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in keeping with child custody law and regulations requiring that family unity be maintained to the degree possible.
The boy surprised the court when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge then suggested that he live with his grandparents, the boy cried out that they also beat him. After considering the remainder of the immediate family and learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to propose who should have custody of him.
After two recesses to check legal references and confer with child welfare officials, the judge granted temporary custody to the Detroit Lions, whom the boy and the court firmly believe are not capable of beating anyone.
Detroit , MI (AP) - A seven-year-old boy was at the center of a Detroit courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in keeping with child custody law and regulations requiring that family unity be maintained to the degree possible.
The boy surprised the court when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge then suggested that he live with his grandparents, the boy cried out that they also beat him. After considering the remainder of the immediate family and learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to propose who should have custody of him.
After two recesses to check legal references and confer with child welfare officials, the judge granted temporary custody to the Detroit Lions, whom the boy and the court firmly believe are not capable of beating anyone.
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Yes! Almost done with school...
So they basically approved my capstone for spring, with the stipulation that it might need some tweaking. Also they approved 8 of my credits, with the possibility of approving another 5. That means I am officially at most 15 credits and one quarter away from graduating! It also means that I am not taking classes this quarter, can save some money, and go all out for FIRST.
I am so relieved. You can't imagine. There is ALWAYS a stress in my life, usually school or work. Now is there NOTHING big? Quite possibly. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!
I am so relieved. You can't imagine. There is ALWAYS a stress in my life, usually school or work. Now is there NOTHING big? Quite possibly. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!
UW love hate relationship
Seriously, I am trying not to hate UW, or college, or education in this state in general. I seriously think they have forgotten about me, not having been notified about my capstone project yet which could potentially be starting today. There are people registered for the class, so it seems that I am officially out of the loop. Is this the second department that I have for some reason unknown to me, alienated at UW? WTF! I know I haven't been actively seeking a resolution over break, but before I left I was told that it would be a matter of days until we were told. Days turned into weeks and sorry, no, I didn't want to deal with this crap over the holidays.
... Last night I went to Snooze Junction pizza in Ballard. The rumor was free pizza - which was kind of true. Sabrina's coworker knows someone that works at this place and sent out notification for people to come. When we got there, there was a private party sign on the door :( But the lack of social anxiety by Sabrina payed off! We crashed the party, or something like that. Turns out they were really nice and talkative to us complete strangers about their pizza. They are putting the finishing touches on their business before opening in a few days. Overall the pizza was tasty, and you couldn't beat the atmosphere (well and the fact that it was free). Hopefully they stick around for a while.
In my future I resolve to attend more parks, bon fires and camping expeditions. Golden Gardens was pleasant last evening, despite it being a little cold. I was reminiscing about our kamikaze camping trip.
I am starting to like work again. It is challenging enough not to get frustrated but to feel a sense of accomplishment. They scoffed at me when I said implementing a certain feature would be easy, and I finished it yesterday. They were pleasantly surprised :)
God, with FIRST, work, school, and new social activities I am all flustered. There are too many things on my list to stay in this state for very long. Once school is resolved (did I mention, the only real stress in my life?!!!) I think things should fall into place nicely. I am going to try hard not to disappear this six weeks like what usually happens.
One of the funniest things I have ever seen:
... Last night I went to Snooze Junction pizza in Ballard. The rumor was free pizza - which was kind of true. Sabrina's coworker knows someone that works at this place and sent out notification for people to come. When we got there, there was a private party sign on the door :( But the lack of social anxiety by Sabrina payed off! We crashed the party, or something like that. Turns out they were really nice and talkative to us complete strangers about their pizza. They are putting the finishing touches on their business before opening in a few days. Overall the pizza was tasty, and you couldn't beat the atmosphere (well and the fact that it was free). Hopefully they stick around for a while.
In my future I resolve to attend more parks, bon fires and camping expeditions. Golden Gardens was pleasant last evening, despite it being a little cold. I was reminiscing about our kamikaze camping trip.
I am starting to like work again. It is challenging enough not to get frustrated but to feel a sense of accomplishment. They scoffed at me when I said implementing a certain feature would be easy, and I finished it yesterday. They were pleasantly surprised :)
God, with FIRST, work, school, and new social activities I am all flustered. There are too many things on my list to stay in this state for very long. Once school is resolved (did I mention, the only real stress in my life?!!!) I think things should fall into place nicely. I am going to try hard not to disappear this six weeks like what usually happens.
One of the funniest things I have ever seen:
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
New Years Resolutions
Not that I ever do any myself, but I found many of these to be along with my general interests and inspiration:
MAKE: New Years' Resolutions
Particularly interesting,
Learn something new from a child or teenager, especially in your area of greatest expertise. I find the perspective of innocent novices to be most refreshing and enlightening.
I have been thinking lately about the community. I have always taken for granted my participation in FIRST, and I should really strive to make the most out of that experience for everyone. It seems unfair to hold it up to some more conventional means of community service, but that shouldn't be the case. I guess I need to make a promise to myself, my new years resolution, to make a change, to live up to my own standards and abilities.
And for some robotic hotness:
MAKE: New Years' Resolutions
Particularly interesting,
Learn something new from a child or teenager, especially in your area of greatest expertise. I find the perspective of innocent novices to be most refreshing and enlightening.
I have been thinking lately about the community. I have always taken for granted my participation in FIRST, and I should really strive to make the most out of that experience for everyone. It seems unfair to hold it up to some more conventional means of community service, but that shouldn't be the case. I guess I need to make a promise to myself, my new years resolution, to make a change, to live up to my own standards and abilities.
And for some robotic hotness:
To Start the New Year
New Years Eve
I had a great new years.
Chapel was fun. There were no shortage of friends, friends of friends, and interesting strangers to be with. I had a fabulous shot of tequila and I think for the first time had champagne at midnight. 6$ a glass, not a bottle ;)
I was the central person to a number of friends that I was attempting to hang out with on new years. I ended up trying, and generally failing at coordinating everyone. It is not something that I should even have attempted that late in the game, but it worked out okay.
We finished at chapel and we walked up the hill looking for a place to go dancing. RPlace had a line of maybe 20 people and a significant wait to get in (a very cold wait) so we moved on to neighbors. Plenty of dancing, a bit more drinking and a lot of fun.
Sabrina forgot her coat at chapel so that was the last stop out for the evening. She found it without incident and we met some very funny guys hanging out in front of chapel. There was discussion about meeting people on craigslist with a guy demonstrating on his web enabled phone how forthcoming people can be on the personals page with their pictures!
Next stop, sleep! I started new years day with a tasty breakfast at B&O with Sabrina, and eventually Adam, and enjoyable discussion about relationships and video games. Who could ask for anything more?
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