Thursday, May 17, 2007
How can I talk about my life? The words would fail so miserably. Words are a failure, and everyday I am reminded of this. I am stuck in this cycle of complex decisions and life reflections.
I need someone where words do not get in the way. It has been too long since I had this existence. Nothing in my life seems to be outside of the context of this, my ultimate goal.
Val is moving, I am graduating from UW, I am quickly approaching my first real full time career type job (in Renton), and I am possibly looking for what may be my permanent residence for the next couple years. End of an era.
People are my life, and also my weakness. They are my addiction, and it pains me to see how successful people are at making themselves unhappy. People think that certain types of unhappiness and dissatisfaction are beneficial in life, that it is some necessary sacrifice to be truly happy. I think that this is tragic, and because it is a minority opinion that I have that this is absurd, I am punished. Despite my most thorough efforts I have yet to sway any one's mind on the matter. People breaking up, cheating on each other, getting hurt. There is no reason for any of this.
In other news, I saw a girl from high school that I had a big crush on back in the day. She is now happily married, but looking better than ever heh. I believe she was Mormon though, so I probably had a slim chance at best :) I have been given an opportunity to bring back some old memories lately and have still managed to make some small fool out of myself. Oh well, better than inaction.
Anyway, lets push things forward.
I need someone where words do not get in the way. It has been too long since I had this existence. Nothing in my life seems to be outside of the context of this, my ultimate goal.
Val is moving, I am graduating from UW, I am quickly approaching my first real full time career type job (in Renton), and I am possibly looking for what may be my permanent residence for the next couple years. End of an era.
People are my life, and also my weakness. They are my addiction, and it pains me to see how successful people are at making themselves unhappy. People think that certain types of unhappiness and dissatisfaction are beneficial in life, that it is some necessary sacrifice to be truly happy. I think that this is tragic, and because it is a minority opinion that I have that this is absurd, I am punished. Despite my most thorough efforts I have yet to sway any one's mind on the matter. People breaking up, cheating on each other, getting hurt. There is no reason for any of this.
In other news, I saw a girl from high school that I had a big crush on back in the day. She is now happily married, but looking better than ever heh. I believe she was Mormon though, so I probably had a slim chance at best :) I have been given an opportunity to bring back some old memories lately and have still managed to make some small fool out of myself. Oh well, better than inaction.
Anyway, lets push things forward.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
A new...
So it has been a long time. Updates to come.
Otherwise, I am in awe of this:
The image link might not last that long, so enjoy while it lasts.
Otherwise, I am in awe of this:
The image link might not last that long, so enjoy while it lasts.
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